Well, first things first. The registration day and orientation week. I've never been to a boarding school and never had the experience of being orientated, but I was a prefect during highschool and we had several camps which was something like orientation. The first day I was in PASUM, I was really determined because the only thing i aimed for was to get a 4 flat. nothing else mattered, that was what my parents told me again and again even before I got into PASUM. All my family members where ex-PASUMians, so they know that PASUM is tough. and my sister was also and ex-PASUMian and managed to get 4flats for both her finals. The fact that getting 4flats is compulsory in order to get scholarships to becoming a doctor, pressured me. My family members also recognize me at being smarter than my sister so, It's like, they're almost 100% sure that 4flats is within my grasp. I, on the other hand knew nothing that was in stored for me in PASUM. I only knew that i need to work my ass off, and change my lazy attitude during highschool to get through the hellish PASUM period. thats what I thought, PASUM is hell on earth.
After registering, my parents cleaned my room as I daydreamed on how to get through orientation week, I knew it was not going to be fun. we were going to be treated and disciplined by soldiers by these PPs(pembantu Pelajar) who were all seniors from the previous pasum batch. and, after a bit of briefing, in the DTC(Dewan Tunku Cansellor) they had left, and i for the first time ever, officially going to start my life as a PASUM student.
Orientation week, wasn't that bad actually, if we minus the parts, where we scold for 2 hours everyday and only had around 3 hours to sleep on everage. Everyday, the activities starts off around 6.15am, just after Subuh prayers. and it's finishes at around 10.30~11, but every single day, the time activities ends gets dragged to 12 O' clock. What's worse is we got scold for 2 hours everyday and had to sleep at 3.00am in the morning. it sucked, I was a super nerd and followed every single order the PPs had given me because of the fear of the punishment in stored for those who did. it was public embarrassment. truth be told, i'm a shy guy. super shy, can't even talk to girls at all. barely had any real friends, this was who I was previously in highschool. a geek, an otaku, someone who had no life. Because of my obedience and my cowardice to volunteer for anything, I managed to get through MHS without getting noticed by anyone. I was just another human among the large group of students(1500+ students) who no one cared and knew about.
For the PPs, I didn't really had any grudge on them or anything, even though they really had us running, literally, and scold us many-many times. I didn't really hate them, it's a neutral feeling actually, I knew they were stressed, even though at that time I didn't know how hard it is to become a facilitator. As expected, the disciplinary PPs, were the ones who were most famous, basically, by thefan girls. maybe it's because of the macho image of being discipline and able to dominate and control people is the reason, well I don't really know. I remembered several who was PP chin, PP ross(most famous for his fair skin), PP hariss, PP ustaz and several more.
after 6 days of going through MHS, it was done, the only thing left was the main event, ''Malam MHS'' which was held on the final night of MHS, Friday. What I experienced here will forever be remembered, because, even though I didn't really do anything special, this is something that made me had hope, a hope that PASUM will be fun, even a slightly bit more fun than what I had in my mind at the moment would've been enough. Well, during this event, it was what I expected it would be, dances, nasyeed, sketch, all that stuff. but after all the VIPs had left, it was time for the after party, mainly dedicated to PPs, for their hard work, sweats and sleepless nights. Well, yes, this was what everyone thought, but actually, this after party had a more significant meaning to it. It is the Last moments for the PPs to have fun before officially parting their ways with pasum. the final 30 minutes of the 'Malam MHS' ,I will never forget, it's like the overflow of emotions from the PPs leaked to me, at least if not to other students. I could tell from the smiles on the PPs faces, they were genuinely having fun, but at the same time, somehow, I knew the PPs were also sad to leave PASUM as their past.
As a student cheering with the crowd, watching the PPs have fun, dancing to xi shua shua twice, I knew there was a bit of hope for me to expereince something called 'fun' here in pasum. it was also that moment, i decided i wanted to experience the same thing I saw on the stage. I wanted to become a PP.
this post I didn't manage to take any pictures because we were told not to bring our valuable belongings with us throughout the period and leave it in the room. So here, enjoy a video of seniors dancing xi shua shua for their final time :)
